In December I struggle to get my desired number of steps in during the daylight hours. I reach for bowls of soup with more spicy heat than is usual. I work harder to find beauty in the fallow garden. I trust that both dawn and summer are coming.
Cayenne peppers
Be patient where you sit in the dark. The dawn is coming.
I often turn to the books in our home library or take a mini field trip to the public library when searching for clues to make my way through these cold days and early sunsets. I go in search of a vocabulary to describe the season, hints for finding beauty, and road maps for coping.
Bottles and dried Ostrich Fern
“The artist’s bookcases were full of poets, like the bookcases of anyone trying to find out how everyone else copes.”
Over the last few days, I have brushed up against so many people that I love both past, present, and several babies who are in the future. I keep them all alive through stories, images, meals, heartbeats, plants, and sunsets.
Bottle with Pothos plant
The truth then: We turn our hearts into museums of the people that we love to keep them alive inside us.
—Nikita Gill, excerpt from “When You Asked Me If I Still Think Of You” @nikita_gill (Instagram, November 18, 2025)
Walking through the cold on the streets of New York one might wish for a fire. Personally, it ignites a of remembrance of other short days, an act of reckoning with the years that have come before as well as imaginations of the future.
Burr oak leaf and acorn
You cannot put a Fire out— A Thing that can ignite Can go, itself, without a Fan— Upon the slowest Night—
You cannot fold a Flood— And put it in a Drawer— Because the Winds would find it out— And tell your Cedar Floor—
As we leave the pottery exhibit tonight we say thank you to all the volunteers who help make it possible and well run. We thank everyone who comes and carefully looks. We are grateful for the conversations, for the support, and for the reinforced friendships. We step out into the world where night is falling and we say thank you yet again.
Grape Vine
Thanks
Listen with the night falling we are saying thank you we are stopping on the bridges to bow from the railings we are running out of the glass rooms with our mouths full of food to look at the sky and say thank you we are standing by the water thanking it standing by the windows looking out in our directions
back from a series of hospitals back from a mugging after funerals we are saying thank you after the news of the dead whether or not we knew them we are saying thank you
over telephones we are saying thank you in doorways and in the backs of cars and in elevators remembering wars and the police at the door and the beatings on stairs we are saying thank you in the banks we are saying thank you in the faces of the officials and the rich and of all who will never change we go on saying thank you thank you
with the animals dying around us taking our feelings we are saying thank you with the forests falling faster than the minutes of our lives we are saying thank you with the words going out like cells of a brain with the cities growing over us we are saying thank you faster and faster with nobody listening we are saying thank you thank you we are saying and waving dark though it is
—W. S.Merwin, in Migration: New and Selected Poems, Copper Canyon Press, 2005
The day was short and the night was long. So many conversations about how I make and fire my work in a show of many potters, each of whom has their own ideas for their rules of expression.
Big Leaf Magnolia leaf
Like Snow
Suppose we did our work like the snow, quietly, quietly leaving nothing out.
Over the years of doing this image series, I have learned to pay more attention to the moon. I find myself anticipating the rise of the full moon and am in awe of its setting. But I am also intrigued by knowing that one of my brothers is most grounded by seeing the waxing crescent moon. I read today that the Egyptian god Thoth was the god of the moon. He was also credited with inventing writing and creating languages. I find it beguiling that the god of the moon is also connected to writing. We give the moon so many names like the cold moon or winter maker moon. Tonight’s is the super moon or long night moon. For me, the movement across the dark becomes an asemic poem in the night sky.
This morning the sun was startlingly brilliant especially when reflected off our pond. As I headed out on my dog walk two swans flew off. In this micro season part of the pond is frozen and the diving ducks have arrived to eat pond weeds. I give the pond a wide berth as they are skittish and fly off at the mere hint of our company. As I circled back to the house a flock of geese came squawking, flapping their rusty hinges to land with the ducks, gliding in over the pasture to find shelter among the crowds on the open water.
Osage Orange on Oblong plate
Sometimes, I Am Startled Out of Myself,
like this morning, when the wild geese came squawking, flapping their rusty hinges, and something about their trek across the sky made me think about my life, the places of brokenness, the places of sorrow, the places where grief has strung me out to dry. And then the geese come calling, the leader falling back when tired, another taking her place. Hope is borne on wings. Look at the trees. They turn to gold for a brief while, then lose it all each November. Through the cold months, they stand, take the worst weather has to offer. And still, they put out shy green leaves come April, come May. The geese glide over the cornfields, land on the pond with its sedges and reeds. You do not have to be wise. Even a goose knows how to find shelter, where the corn still lies in the stubble and dried stalks. All we do is pass through here, the best way we can. They stitch up the sky, and it is whole again.
At sundown, after many trips back and forth, from house to studio in the damp landscape, it feels like all my words have gathered at the foot of the trees in silence.
To a Leaf Falling in Winter
At sundown when a day’s words have gathered at the feet of the trees lining up in silence to enter the long corridors of the roots into which they pass one by one thinking that they remember the place as they feel themselves climbing away from their only sound while they are being forgotten by their bright circumstances they rise through all of the rings listening again afterward as they listened once and they come to where the leaves used to live during their lives but have gone now and they too take the next step beyond the reach of meaning
—W.S. Merwin, in “Present Company,” Copper Canyon Press, 2005