{"id":804,"date":"2023-06-17T20:27:51","date_gmt":"2023-06-18T00:27:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.catherinewhite.com\/roughideas\/?p=804"},"modified":"2023-06-17T20:27:51","modified_gmt":"2023-06-18T00:27:51","slug":"17-summer-shards","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.catherinewhite.com\/roughideas\/2023\/06\/17\/17-summer-shards\/","title":{"rendered":"#17 summer shards"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

My dad was a loud sleeper. Boy, did he snore. In the summer after my mom died Zo\u00eb slept in the cabin room next to his, separated only by a thin pine wall. She was dismayed by his dream swearings in the wee hours of the night. Our family also believed in naps. My brother Stephen and I used to wonder if the soup and sandwiches at lunch were drugged to make us all nap so soundly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My father also hated it when his children retold their dreams at the breakfast table. I have had recent vivid dreams of baby sitting for our grandson or meeting my dad at a Soho restaurant. In my dreams my mom is worried about candles and flowers. I always want to slip into a dream life that is less messy, perhaps full of the seeds of ideas, simple rich meals, and resonant pots. I have been dreaming of scattering the poppy seeds in our field for next year’s blossoms and visualizing the Meyer lemon tree weighed down with fruit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Poppy seed heads<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Careful of what I carry
in my head and in my hollow,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’ve been a long time worried
about grasping infinity<\/p>\n\n\n\n

and coaxing some calm
out of the softest part<\/p>\n\n\n\n

of the pins and needles of me.
I’d like to take a nap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But not a nap that’s eternal,
a nap where you wake up<\/p>\n\n\n\n

having dreamt of falling, but
you’ve only fallen into<\/p>\n\n\n\n

an ease so unknown to you
it looks like a new country.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Let me slip into a life less messy.
Let me slip into your sleeve.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Be very brave about my
trespass, the plan is simple —<\/p>\n\n\n\n

the plan is the clock tower
and the lost crow. It’ll be rich.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

We’ll live forever. Every moon
will be a moon of surrender<\/p>\n\n\n\n

and lemon seeds. You there,
standing up in the crowd,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m not proud. The stove
can’t boast of the meal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

All this to say — consider this,
with your combination of firefly<\/p>\n\n\n\n

and train whistle, consider this,
with your maze and steel,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want to be the rough clothes
you can’t sleep in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n


–Ada Lim\u00f3n, excerpt from The Noisiness of Sleep<\/em> in Bright Dead Things, Milkweed Editions<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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